i found my old bottle of st. john’s wort capsules. the last time i even took any of these were last year, probably around this same time.
it’s hard to tell if i’ve gotten better. it sucks that i go through these periods of absolutely hating myself to times where, even if i don’t feel completely fine, i still have hope that i’ll get better.
i don’t know if i have depression or anything. i most likely don’t — but i have a feeling that if i felt any worst than i have been, i probably wouldn’t be here right now.
i died again on habitRPG but i’ll keep going. it was the only thing keeping me productive for a while.
so i’m headed for school tomorrow and then i’m going to go print some resumes. i can’t let myself put off job searching any longer. i really do need to get out of this house more — it’s suffocating. i’m just getting tired of hearing “cheer up”, as if i don’t tell myself that 100x a day.
just to give myself a nice head start, i’m going to take three of these capsules.